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Chicago Here I come!
Fuck colorado lmao
just cuz he/she is cute ; w;
y’know I have so many imperfections but yet that hasn’t stopped me from being happy. Running from my past has been the hardest thing ever for me to do and I have faced it many times and I have turned my emotions into hatred towards those people that have hurt me. But y’know I never stopped caring about those hurtful people.I have been abandoned and I have had alot of promises broken. I have been lied to many times and left at the times I have needed that one person by my side. That’s because most push me away and run, Whether it be the dire times through my pregnancy or the times after my pregnancy, EVEN way before my pregnancy period. I have cared a lot about people and when I care I care but most people shrug it off and turn around denying the fact that I do care but instead they are to blind to see that I’m trying to reach out to them.
When I care about something deeply and I say I’m going to be there, I don’t back out at the one minute they need me most. That’s being a coward and breaking somebody’s heart and ripping their emotions to shreds while leaving them to be alone. I honestly hate that feeling! I hate it alot and I honestly never want to do it to someone either because I’d rather be there instead of closing the door on them like a cold heartless person would.
But through all this bullshit I have learned that some people don’t deserve your love and your caring. For one they showed you and told you lies. That’s a no bueno, Sooooo Smile and walk away~
Today I am so very happy to have the love of my life back in my arms and he’s not going to run because I have a kid or lack of contact because I can’t get to my nook to text him. That makes me smile knowing I have that person in my life and by my side. I’m a happy artist, mother, mate and a friend to the few I got left.
I smile bright when I’m a mess and I’m loved best when I don’t have to put a mask up to hide from everyone.
So doing this for me and my mom :) oh and my brother ^•^
My inspiration poster I made today which is in turn inspired by a poster I came across on tumblr last night!!
I set a couple rules for myself and if I stick with them for 10 days I can reward myself with something I picked out! It almost feels like birthday presents hehe
I’m going to hang it on my mirror so I see it everyday and never give up!! :D
I will lose this weight :)
“If opportunity doesn’t knock, build a door”
Wahhh!? I didnt do that! The dog did eeet!